So after a hard to hear conversation with my boyfriend (we have alot of there) over dinner last night, I have decided that I do not try. Essentially we were talking about the choices we make in life and how he got to where he is compared to where I am in life. Mind you I am a little younger but I am 50 thousand dollars plus in debt and only the choices I made in life have lead me to there. Now that is all past I can not really dwell on what I have done when I need to fix what I can keep doing.
So I have come to the conclusion that I do not try. Others may think differently they see how successful I am at things and no doubt I have done good with my life. But is it the best? No way! I give medium effort to get by not being at the bottom of the totem pole. I am very proud of everything I have accomplished (ie college running a marathon, raising money for charity) but in my mind I could of been my best at it. I could have trained harder, I could of played better and I could of studied (period). I know I can not be perfect.
For once I have new year resolution that is worth something. I am going to TRY!!! Instead of sitting back and waiting for thing to fall into the right place I am going to put all my effort into things and see what the outcome. I am pretty positive that it will be a great one. So here is to 2012! I promise you will be reading more from me because I will be trying more at everything including this blog!