Serious Sunday

So after a hard to hear conversation with my boyfriend (we have alot of there)  over dinner last night, I have decided that I do not try.  Essentially we were talking about the choices we make in life and how he got to where he is compared to where I am in life.  Mind you I am a little younger but I am 50 thousand dollars plus in debt and only the choices I made in life have lead me to there.  Now that is all past I can not really dwell on what I have done when I need to fix what I can keep doing.

  So I have come to the conclusion that I do not try.  Others may think differently they see how successful I am at things and no doubt I have done good with my life.  But is it the best?  No way!   I give medium effort to get by not being at the bottom of the totem pole.   I am very proud of everything I have accomplished (ie college running a marathon, raising money for charity) but in my mind I could of been my best at it.   I could have trained harder, I could of played better and I could of studied (period).  I know I can not be perfect.

For once I have new year resolution that is worth something.  I am going to TRY!!!  Instead of sitting back and waiting for thing to fall into the right place I am going to put all my effort into things and see what the outcome.  I am pretty positive that it will be a great one.  So here is to 2012!  I promise you will be reading more from me  because I will be trying more at everything including this blog!

Music Monday

I am back and ready to attack 2012 like no othere year before. I have said it before but i really think that this will be the year to top all others!  I can only imagaine what it will bring. I have so many plans for the year and do not want to let anyone or thing get in the way of me completing all of my goals! Here are some lyrics. I had a bumpy NYE but I believe it is ok.  I can only make my year better everyday  More to come about the new and old year.  I have a lot of catching up to do!  Song and lyrics from Switchfoot:

Is this the New Year or just another night?
Is this the new fear or just another fright?
Is this the new tear or just another desperation?

Is this the finger or just another fist?
Is this the kingdom or just a hit n' miss?
A misdirection, most in all this desperation

Is this what they call freedom?
Is this what you call pain?
Is this what they call discontented fame?

It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in

I'm singing this one like a broken piece of glass
From broken arms an' broken noses in the back
Is this the New Year or just another desperation?

You're pushing till you're shoving
You bend until you break
Till you stand on the broken fields where our fathers lay

It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in

There's nothing here worth saving,
Is no one here at all?
Is there any net left that could break our fall?

It'll be a day like this one
When the sky falls down and the hungry and poor and deserted are found
Are you discontented? Have you been pushing hard?
Have you been throwing down this broken house of cards?

It'll be a day like this one
When the world caves in
When the world caves in
When the world caves in

Is there nothing left now?
Nothing left to sing
Are there any left who hasn't kiss the enemy?
Is this the New Year or just another desperation?

Does justice never find you? Do the wicked never lose?
Is there any honest song to sing besides these blues?

Coming back!!

I am coming back to blogging! Something that helps organize my life and keep me sain. I will be back to regular blogging from now I on! Hope there is still people out there reading. If not will find new ones. Will update you with what has been going on with me soon but for now bed time!

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RELIENT K LYRICS

"More Than Useless"

I feel like, I would like
To be somewhere else doing something that matters
And I'll admit here, while I sit here
My mind wastes away and my doubts start to gather

Whats the purpose? It feels worthless
So unwanted like I've lost all my value
I can't find it, not in the least bit
and I'm just scared, so scared that I'll fail you
So I say if I can't, do something significant
I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted
And nothing trivial, that life could give me will
Measure up to what might have replaced it

Too late look, my date book
Is packed full of days that were empty and now gone
And I bet, that regret
Will prove to get me to improve in the long run

And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all
And sometimes I wonder why, why I'm even here at all
But then you assure me

I'm a little more than useless
And I never knew I knew this
Was gonna the day, gonna be the day
That I would do something right
Do something right for once

I notice, I know this
Week is a symbol of how I use my time
Resent it, I spent it
Convincing myself the world's doing just fine
Without me
Doing anything of any consequence
Without me
Showing any sign of ever making sense
Of my time , it's my life
And my right, to use it like I should
Like he would, for the good
Of everything that I would ever know

Marvelous Monday: Job Interview

So I have been waiting on a call from Verizon to get a face to face interview and today it came. It is lined up for Wednesday at 10am. This job will double the average pay I get right now and help take a load of stress off my shoulders! Keep me in your thoughts and prayers.

Today was a long day. Got a run in this am (making everyday count). It was a little colder then I though out. The wind was the bad part. I was getting some crazy wind burn on my not covered face. So I only lasted about 2 + miles or so which took me almost a half hour. Stretched and got warm inside while doing some ab work.

Now waiting on the BF to get home so we can do our push up challenge together.

Keep smiling! :)

Serious Sunday: Time To Grow Up

So I am officially 26 years old as of last Tuesday and it is time to be more adult like. I need to get myself together and grow up a little. Mostly this means as of right now I would not be able to support myself. My boyfriend keeps me afloat as much as he can but it is time to be that independent woman I know I am. I will slowly be telling you about what I have been up to and what I plan on being up to. I am going to have a theme for every day of my blogs. I think it will keep my motivated to write which is something I definitely want to do more. So here is my Serious Sunday! And the rest of the week is previewed as follows:

Marvelous Monday: Take advantage of every day and here I will share how I do that.

Tickle me Tuesday: Laughter is the best medicine and I will prove it on Tuesdays!

Words Wednesday: I will be sharing quotes, song lyrics, bible verse, articles ect that inspire me, make me think, that I have or want to learn from.

Triathlon Thursdays: I will talk about my training a lot in my blog but this day will be strictly focus on my Tri Training. This is one of my biggest goals for the year and I am already letting it slop by not being on top of my fund raising (more on this thursday)!

Food Friday: This will include my journey of wanting to be vegan and being vegetarian. I will share recipes and talk about my food struggles and triumphs.

Second look Saturday: This will be a recap day of my week and my blogs and comments from all of you.

Thank you all for support you have given. I am back to take charge of my life. I hope you all enjoy the journey with me!

I am baaack!!!

Long time no see everyone! I am officially back in action. This will now be the blog where I right about being the athlete I have always wanted to be. Just done, losing 30lbs in the last year. Next up, losing 25 more and training for St. Anthony's Triathlon. The Tri is in may and I am again training with TNT. Look to the right and donate if you can. I am excited to start blogging more and more everyday. I would love any feedback I can get. This is a fun new journey I will be on and I really feel like I have changed a lot since my marathon in '09! On deck for today is going to the TNT alumni event. Then bike ride on the trainers in my friends with my boyfriend. I promise you will see a lot more words on this site and a new design coming soon!